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My Sister, My Best Friend

Dear Karla,

Sometimes, I find it hard to believe we’re adopted. The bond we share feels like it’s in our blood. When you hurt, my heart sinks like a crow bar. When you’re happy, my heart turns cartwheels. I know you feel the same toward me.

Sisters

You’ve literally always been there for me. At the tender age of eight, you became more than a big sister…you became a second mom to me. I look at the foul way my boys treat each other sometimes, and I’m completely baffled. I don’t get it because you never mistreated me. You always made me feel special, important, and cherished. Well…except for that one time you hung the “I’m a thumb sucker” sign around my neck and made me wear it around the house to shame me into quitting the habit. I know you meant well. Months of therapy fixed me up. (grin)

Dean and Karla taking me on one of my first pony rides.

Dean, Karla, and me mid-70′s

Karla’s high school graduation 1980
Me, Karla, Buddy

From that first car ride home from the adoption agency, you’ve been proud of me. I remember hearing the story of you and Dean taking me out of the church nursery so that you could stand next to the preacher at the back door and show me off to the rest of the church family. I remember how you used to always call me “Whiz Kid” because you thought I was super smart.

You were always there to cheer me on no matter what I happened to be doing. Piano and dance recitals, school talent shows, and rodeo stuff. Remember how you cried your eyes out when I won the Little Miss Topps pageant?

My moment of fame and glory: Little Miss Topps 1980

My wedding day with my brother Dean and matron-of-honor Karla

The tears. Tears of pride. Tears of goodbye. Tears of grief when we lost our brother and then Buddy.

Dean and Buddy goofing off at a family BBQ

We’ve been through a lot these last few years. A lot of pain and a lot of joy. A lot of tears and a lot of laughs.

Karla laughing her head off about something or other

Karla, I can’t fully describe how happy it makes me to see you and Bubba so in love and so happy and peaceful together. What a gift from God! What a blessing for me to be able to love you both so, so much.

Karla and Bubba on their wedding day 2009

I feel the same way when I see you with Shields, your soon-to-be daughter-in-love. That girl adores you! Matt is destined for success with two incredible women in his corner who love him and love each other. Shields can enter into her marriage with Matt knowing that you will support them, love them, and let them live their own lives without interference.

Karla and Matt

Shields, Mom, Karla, Me

I will never be able to repay you for the loving support you’ve given me as a momma to my three sons. Thank you for the way you love the boys and for the special attention you give to your fellow middle child, Logan.

Karla and Logan (10 yrs old or so)

Our parents are getting older. I think we both secretly wish our precious dad would go on to be with Jesus. Those trips to visit him in the nursing home are becoming more bitter and less sweet. It’s hard to see our strong cowboy daddy so weak, so vulnerable, so unlike him. The thought of Dad and our brother Dean reunited in heaven comforts me.

Dad and Karla
Dean, Dad, and Karla at one of our famous family BBQ’s

I pray we have many, many more years with our Southern belle, shopper extraordinaire mom, but at some point, it will probably be just the two of us left from our family of five. But we’ll be ok because we’re family and we’re sisters-in-Christ. Adopted by law and adopted in Christ. One permanent, the other eternal.

Sisters…so different yet so the same. Your support and unconditional love buoys me in this raging sea of life. I love you, Karla. Happy 50th birthday!

My beautiful sister and me

Love Songs to Daddy

Teeming with weary, antsy passengers, Gate A-23 was a people watcher’s dream. Bleary-eyed from a day of goodbyes, I spied a family of four waiting their turn to enter the jet way.

With diaper bag on her shoulder a chestnut-haired mom pushed her squawking toddler in a packed-down stroller. We exchanged  tired smiles.

Then, my attention became riveted to the daddy holding his older daughter’s hand. She couldn’t have been more than five. Her shiny brown hair bounced in a pony tail as she held on tight to her daddy’s right arm.

I love my daddy! I love! I love him! I love Daddy, she sang to the man of her heart.

Captivated by the sight, I was transported to a similar scene from earlier in the day.

My sister drove me to see our dad in the nursing home one last time before I flew home.

Much to our delight, Dad wasn’t in his bed; he was in the dining room surrounded by other residents. I can’t remember the last time I saw Dad out of bed. Even though he can’t feed himself or interact with the other residents, I believe it does him good to be in the presence of the hustle and bustle of life.

I settled down on a rolling stool and stooped down to get eye-level with Dad.

Hey, good lookin! Whatcha got cookin’? How’s about cookin’ something up with me? Hey sweet baby. Don’tcha think maybe we could find us a brand-new recipe? Dad’s eyes brightened at the sound of one of his favorite Hank Williams songs.

Karla scratched Dad’s stooped back while I rubbed his frail arms.

Karla and our sweet daddy

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You never know dear how much I love you. Please don’t take my sunshine away.

Dad’s lips moved, just a little. I think he was trying to sing along.

After a few minutes of doting on our dad who always doted on us, Karla and I went on our way so the lunchtime routine could commence.

A familiar heaviness settled in my heart. It happens every time I have to say goodbye to Dad.

Will that be the last time I see him alive? The last time for me to sing love songs to the first man to capture my heart?

Back to the present, my fellow passengers and I began to edge down the jet way. A few feet ahead, the little brown-haired girl continued her daddy serenade. She glanced back at me, and I smiled at her.

And that’s where the fairy tale ended. That little twerp gave me the dirtiest mean girl look ever! If her eyes were bullets, I’d be one dead bird!

Don’t worry little miss prissy…I have my own daddy to love.

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